So the holidays draw to a close, and thinking back on how I spent it, it was most definitely one of the best holidays ever, going to Taiwan, and hanging out with friends non-stop every single day, and working too! But, things aren't always going to be all fun and games, as I realised today.
Everyone needs some kind of balance in their lives - juggling family, work, uni, and friends. I realised during this particular holiday, I had no kind of balance whatsoever. After semester 1, I stayed home to study and didn't really see any friends at all, and I left for Taiwan the day after my exams ended, only having a window of 1 day to see all my close friends before I left. Upon my return, I decided after spending so much time with my grandparents in Taiwan, it would be ok to go out everyday to catch up with sorely missed friends. That was exactly what I did, and a few days ago I realised that I had not been spending anytime at all with my family at all, only eating dinner on the night I returned to Taiwan. One morning before I left to spend the day with Terry at uni and school, I saw my mum in the kitchen and she said to me "Wow Geoff! Long time no see!" and that was no doubt very troubling to hear. Sigh.
The fact that uni starts again tomorrow doesn't really help my situation much, since it takes up 5 days a week, with most days coming back to a cold lonely dinner. Now that I have a job as well, working 2 days a week, I have to carefully delegate time for never-ending homework, time with friends, time with family, and just time for myself too. Which brings me to my next issue - do I even have time for a girlfriend? I mean sure, the single life has its advantages too, but after awhile you do start to miss the warmth, love and company of an special intimate companion.
There is a girl on my mind right now, but I don't want to let her down with my own hectic lifestyle and end up not being able to talk to her, be with her and care for her. Maybe now is simply not the time, but will it ever be for the next 5 years? Should I wait, or just go for gold? We're only young once right? These are questions all spinning in my head and the peace of mind I had when I was on vacation is all but gone.
Life is pretty turbulent right now, but I guess that's what teenage-hood is like. 'Til next time!
3 Comments:
GO FOR IT GMAN
LIFE IS MUCH TOO SHORT TO WHILE AWAY WITH UNCERTAINTY AND TEARS
ALSO, CONGRATULATIONS - YOU HAVE A NEW STALKER
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Anonymous, at July 27, 2008 at 5:56 AM
you prioritise.
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x.bijou, at July 28, 2008 at 11:43 PM
haw.haw.haw. =3
You know what you should do Geoffwie?
Take GOOOOOOOD care of yourself first =P The first solid step in any progress in life is knowing where to put your foot. =D
So ask yourself, "Where am I now?" "Where do I see myself n months from now (n being any imaginative number in your head lower than 6; 0 < n <6 months).
Once you've got that sorted and have a plan on reaching it, then my friend, shall I call you successful. *thumbs up*
Live life and love it.~
-Cambawidgie!
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~clouds~, at August 6, 2008 at 5:39 AM
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